It’s been more than six months since I posted. That can only mean one of two things. Either I am so competent in my weight loss efforts that I don’t need to post what I eat anymore. OR, I have fallen off the weight loss wagon and am out of control and gaining weight. Hmmmm, what do you think? I would say number two. After all I am a food junkie and once I get on a roll (or a bagel), I am hard to stop.

So the truth is I have been traveling and holidaying for the last six months. I have also injured my hip and my knee which means I can’t exercise like I used to. I have gained 20 lbs. back. It makes me sad. I tried so long and so hard to lose weight and I was so successful. But put a couple of stumbling blocks in my path and I fall easily into old habits. The truth of the matter is, though, that I still have lost 40 lbs. and I could get back to where I was and beyond. The question is how to do it.

Tonight we had a vegetable curry with brown rice. In the vegetable portion were chickpeas, cauliflower, carrots, onions, shredded Brussels sprouts, and chiles. I ate a reasonable portion. In fact it would have been a perfect dinner if it had not been accompanied by some cheese and wine. So I actually have eaten totally on plan today except for the cheese and wine. Maybe tomorrow I can do a little better.

I think I look like a fat person again. It is very discouraging. My clothes don’t fit very well and my self-esteem is shot. I got blood work back today and my numbers are edging up toward unacceptable. It is the perfect storm for a binge of eating.

What I am going to try to do is to post my pictures of what I eat again and be honest in my commentary. Then I will read it again and again and try to regain the zeal for eating correctly. I know I can do it. I have empirical proof. Good luck to me.